Struggling

So I'm posting here to help me deal with it.
I am drawn to Fet... I am drawn to want to see what M is posting.
I don't even know why.
But this certainly is an exercise in self control.
I mean. I could disobey, G would never know, but I would know.

Being challenged is a good thing.
I mean. I want to learn to obey.
If I only obey when I want to do or not do something, that's not really obeying.
I am struggling though.
It's like, not eating that cookie that's on the plate. It's hard.

I love him. I trust him. I want to obey him. I actually like having something that gives me the opportunity to grow in my submissive role.