September 12th - Friday Night

It's Friday, I spent the afternoon and evening with my daughter. It was actually fun. It's nice to work with her sometimes. :)

I messaged G when I got home. He was busy, on the phone, so he didn't message me back right away, although he probably did read my message, he has figured out, if he doesn't click on the box, he can read the message but we (meaning me and his baby girls) won't know that he is there. But, I know, he is probably there but just busy.
That got me to thinking... (gets me into trouble I know LOL)

I was thinking, G must have a challenge scheduling time for all of us. I mean he has two baby girls, a pet and a submissive, plus a wife and grown kids. Not to mention other friends and family who want his time .A scheduling nightmare! LOL.

I don't usually worry too much or think too much about that. I mean, it's not my issue, not my responsibility. And I certainly would not give up any of MY time with him, that is... if I knew that is what I was doing, he would never tell me if that was the case, it would not go over well. Our time together is precious to me, and while I wish no ill on any of the others, they are not my concern, they are his. It's up to him to take care of all of us, he chose to take on the responsibility so it's up to him to live up to his commitments.

That being said, I am by no means suffering. He is almost always available to me when I need him. And if not, usually it's not very long until he is. I don't believe that another Dom would give me this much time. Well not an online Dom. Perhaps a real life one. But, if and that is a big huge IF, IF I ever do have a real life Dom, he will have to be monogamous. I cannot and will not completely give myself to another Dom whom I have to share with others. I won't give up G because of it, but I don't like it, and I will never ever choose it again. Perhaps if we were both allowed to play with others it might work, but I doubt it.

Tomorrow night is the September Munch. I am planning to go. I'm excited, I hope I don't chicken out. I really really want to be a part of this community. The kinky community. I feel wanted and accepted with my kinky friends. Lots of hugs. LOL

G is having a shower, then he's coming back to say goodnight.
He said he was on the phone... I wonder if he was having phone sex with someone else.  I am not dwelling on that, it just crosses my mind.

He is very very good at what he does. LOL
I never knew, before him, that phone sex could be so satisfying.
He really blew me away when we first met. :)
And now that I know, I can never seem to get enough.
By the day after, I am wanting him again. LOL
I love hearing his voice, I love seeing him on cam. I love even just texting with him.
He is my world. Without him, I fear I might not even exist.