Why i should leave

He has never said
"I can't wait to see you again"

He doesn't think about me when we're not together.
-ok I don't actually know that

He isn't IN love with me
- he has said as much
- I don't want a luke warm relationship I want passion

He won't sleep beside me

He's allergic to my dog, and he would prefer she not be around.

He keeps me at arms length

My Obsession ??

Talked with him a bit, about how sad it makes me that he doesn't miss me.
He didn't say... but i do miss you...
But he did say... I don't know why you think that.
He says he thinks he does show me he loves me and wants me... but that I am saying... what he's doing is not enough... and that there is nothing else he can do
I understand that he feels frustrated. I understand that he doesn't know what it is I need. Because I don't even know what it is that i need,
All i know is that. I usually feel that this relationship is all one sided.
he says that's not true
I don't know if it's my issue or if there actually is something missing.


I posted a meme that he says made him very angry - I wouldn't have expected him to be angry
It said... If my absence does not affect your life then my presence has no meaning in it.
It was ,,, sort of directed at him, it was directed at any person I may be in a relationship with.

One thing I think... I need to find a hobby or something to keep me busy so that I don't always just be thinking about him and missing him. Perhaps I am being a little obsessed.

Ugh! I am afraid, if I pull away, he will just let me go and then our relationship will be over.
I don't want him to lose me. It makes me sad.
I don't want to have to find another Dom, I like the one I have.

All i needed

Apparently, was for him to "take me in hand"

To put his foot down. To be a little more forceful with me.

I miss you

Today, I really miss Grizz.
I miss the connection we had.
I miss how he always looked out for me.

And I miss M
I miss having someone who missed me when I was gone.
I miss cuddling and watching TV

I think Tim and I are becoming more just friends. I am considering asking to be released.
I'm not getting the sex that I need...
He says "I'm just not feeling it."
To me, that means it's over.
I'm not at all interested in trying to "make" him want me.
Things sure have changed.
I'm very sad about it.