I need to be stronger

I need to be stronger. I need to not depend on G so much.
I need to know, that if he was to leave me, that I would be OK. Or if he was to do something that made it so that I have to leave him, I need to be strong enough to do that with out ending up in the Looney bin.
He could decide at any time that he wants someone else.
There is simply no such thing as security. All relationships end.

He will either leave me or he will hurt me enough that I'll have to leave.
I know, he'd rather be chatting up some young thing on Fet than be dealing with my crap. I don't really blame him. My life is not much fun.

I have to prepare myself.
He will not always be there.
I need to learn how to be alone.
I need to distance myself from him.
So that he won't be able to hurt me so much when he leaves.