3am Still awake

But at least I've stopped crying.

I miss him so very much

:'(
Crying still.
And now I have a headache.
SMH
Self inflicted.
Ugh!

Angry

MlI am so angry.
Upset!
I am so tired of having to take a number to be with my Dom!

Ugh!!!!!!!

I'm so very frustrated.
It's not even about sex. Although I am feeling very frustrated that way too
Even Just to hear his voice.
I have to wait in line. Fuck That!!!!
I am so so sick of it!!!
I hate it!!!!!!!

I deserve better.
There are so many Dom's just waiting to take his place.
I don't even know why I agreed to be his in the first place...
Oh ya..
That's right.... Because he tricked me.
He said they were just women who had been hurt, who he was protecting.

Don't get all butt hurt with me because I suggest that you might lie.

You fucking lie!!!
You are a liar!!!!!

I love you anyway. I love all of you.
Even though some things I don't like

But don't pretend you would never lie when we both know for a fact that it's not true.
You do lie
You would lie
You have lied
It's nothing new.
Just sometimes like today, it really fucking pisses me off.
I couldn't fucking care less if one of your little play things is feeling neglected.
Choose what's most important
If it's not me. Than fucking say it and I'll get out of your fucking life and stop "bothering" you. Otherwise... When i need you... Tell them that you have to go.

Crying my eyes out now.
Going to be a long horrible night.

Why do I have to be in love with him!
I am so so so angry!!

So what... I get 5 min in the morning and 5 at night.

While he spends his time with them instead.

WTF!!!!!!!

Aaaaaaaaa!!!!!
I am screaming in frustration and anger and sadness and hurt.
I am starting to hate them.
I hate them and I resent them for every second he spends with them that he could have spent with me. Life is short. There are only so many minutes to be had, I want as many with him as I can possibly get.
I DON'T WANT TO SHARE HIM!!!

He has so little time.

I guess if I didn't love him so much, I wouldn't be so angry.
I wouldn't care.
But how do you just stop loving someone. I'm not sure that's even possible. Nor do I want to... But sometimes I think I should.  Sometimes I think, he just truly does not have time to be my Dom :(

Dress shopping

Dress shopping and lunch with my beautiful daughters today. It was a good day.

I want him

So amazing how he can arouse me over the phone.
My body tingling.
My heart beating fast.
My pussy feeling so hot
So empty, needing to feel a hard cock inside me. Fucking me deep
Oh fuck.
I want him so very badly.

*****Postings from my Fet Account when I closed it.

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