So aroused

I've been so aroused today. Thinking of Grizz, thinking of him making me cum. I wrote him a little story, teasing, but I think, well, I know, it backfired on me. I messaged him and I need to come. So he had me call Emily was on his way two sons. And your voice in my ear and the images describe doing to me fucking hot man. I'm coming and gushing for him oh my god it was so high fuck I love him. Now I'm just lying here he's going to play music. I just need to lie here for a bit and relax. I just need to I guess I just want to I just want to enjoy this tingling in my toes. Fuck I want him to come here and fuck me for real. God I just want to be with a real man, I don't mean real physically although, that too, I mean a strong, confident, man who can be dominant. I want a man who would take control. Just use me , take pleasure from me, oh god, the way he does. I want him. I want him here in my bed. Right now! I want him to fuck me, I want him to fun in me. I want to feel that hot seed filling me. *sigh*
Someday. Ugh! Someday is not fast enough! lol *sigh*

What if I was to go there. Would he want that. I don't really know. I'm never really sure where I stand. But I don't know if it's just me, or if there's a reason I doubt. I don't really trust my own judgment in these matters. I've been fooled too many times.

I wish we were in another universe, one where he is mine, and mine alone. We'd live as Master and slave. I would serve him the best i could. No wife, no baby girls. Just Him and me. Having lots of hot sex. I know, I know, that will never happen, but it's a nice fantasy.

I long to be touched. To have a man's warm hands on me. 
I long to be spanked
Restrained
Forced to orgasm.
To have my Sir play with my body
To see that he enjoys it.
To be his slut that he can do with as he pleases, when he pleases. I want that so badly.  I feel the ache in the pit of my stomach.

So sleepy now. lol