I am freaking out inside. I don't know why these thoughts come into my head. Thoughts of him with Brittany, telling her the same things he tells me, making her cum. Thinking maybe he enjoys being with her more than with me. Ugh! Why, why does he have to have these other women. It makes things so much harder.
I don't want to be just another one of his playthings. Ugh!
Why, why do these thoughts come in my head. I left Fet so that I wouldn't have to see this crap or think about it anymore. But I know he's on there. I know he's got these other women that he has sex with. Ugh! Seriously makes me think about leaving him, even though I love him and it would cause me great pain.
I don't want to have to share my Dom. I don't want to have to give up Fet life to keep from being upset about my Dom's other women, or his flirting, I want him to be just mine, all mine. And I can never ever have that with him. It's so sad, so very sad, crying my eyes out now.
It makes me very angry and resentful that I was forced to give up my place on his profile. I had no choice, it was either, give that up, or give him up. I am very angry that I had to make that choice. That he was so oblivious to how he was hurting me. Ugh! SMH.
Why do these thoughts have to torment me this way. :'(
I love him so much. :'(
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