My letter to my Sir

I just sent this to Bill.

I was very sleepy when I came home, I laid down. Was having very intense sex dreams. Dreaming that a dominant man grabbed my hair from behind me, I gasped, because it was unexpected, and he said, "Oh you like that?" Then he reached around with his other hand, cupping my breast, he found my nipple under my shirt and pinched it hard enough to make me cry out (I fucking loved every second). He turned me to face him, he looked into my eyes, he saw how aroused I was, and he saw my submissiveness. He smiled, and said "I see. You do like it."

I woke up with such a strong longing to have a Dom's hands on me. What i mean is, to feel what it's really like to be with a dominant man. I think I need physical sex Bill. I think we need to talk about it. Thing is though. If it means losing you, then I'll go without. I choose you. But if, if we could devise a plan where I can be yours and have a "playmate" of sorts, I would be grateful. Perhaps if we only played while you were able to watch, able to tell him what to do? Your proxy? I'm sure there are many men who would be interested in that sort of arrangement. Or, is that too much like cuckolding... I don't mean to offend you, I know YOU are the type of man who does the cuckolding. I am just throwing out ideas. My ideal arrangement would be to have a man here who respects your authority, and our relationship, with whom I can have physical sex. These are just my thoughts. Not meant to hurt you, I hope they don't. You are not losing me. I'm simply wanting to have a conversation about these things. I love you so very much. But another 6 months, another year, or many, without the physical touch of a man. I don't want that. I need that touch. I long for it.  I'm starving for it. I love you Bill. If we lived closer, if being with you physically was even a remote possibility THAT is what I truly want, THAT is what I hunger for. But we both know, that's not going to happen. ((Hugging you tight, kissing you deeply on your lips)). I love you so much.