So many feels!

I am in bed, though not sleeping.
Today I was so emotional. I felt like I found my Dom again, like he had been gone. Or perhaps it was me who was gone, who was distant, floating away. Today I felt close to him again. I felt like this is where I belong, with him.
Crying, but happy tears.

I sent these messages to him...
Thoughts run through my mind, of your requirements of me, of exercise, and bedtimes, writing in my journal, and cumming for no one but you, and never touching unless I am with you, and knowing you have these requirements, makes me smile, brings me comfort and calm, a sense of purpose... to please you. I need rules to obey, I need them to be enforced, I need you to check up on me, and give me discipline when I need it, you give me these things and I am very grateful. Thank you so very much for choosing me to be your submissive.  I love you.

Sometimes I do forget, I forget the nature of our relationship, that is when I start to feel insecure, when it seems as though I am the one in control. Even though it may not be true, if it seems that way, it causes me to be anxious. It makes it difficult for me to surrender to you. Sometimes I need a reminder. Sex does remind me somewhat, but even with just your tone, like today, in your messages, reminded me of my place and I am feeling much more secure than I have been of late. I want to share this with you, so you know what I need to be happy and calm and secure in our relationship. It's not that I think you will leave, I no longer have that fear, it never enters my mind anymore. But sometimes I do feel like I am floating away, hard to explain, but I sometimes need you to pull me back. forcefully remind me of my place. I know you don't enjoy being harsh with me, and I love you for that, but sometimes I do need a reminder that you are my Dom NOT my friend with benefits, if you know what I mean.

He sent back wonderful audio messages. Soo dominant, Sooo commanding I love them, I listened over and over.
I love my Sir. And I know that he loves me. *kisses*