This Afternoon

Sitting at my sister's house out back. Nobody's home.
Just pondering. Visiting with Molly, letting her run around the yard. She's having fun.
All of a sudden, missing my Dom. Strange how it comes upon me so suddenly. One minute I'm perfectly fine and the next I'm wanting him. Missing him. Wanting to hear his voice. lol.
He's busy today. It's Sunday. He goes to church and spends time with his family. It's interesting how he leads a double life. They don't know about me. Or his baby girls. Or anything about Fet Life. It surprises me that he posts his picture. What if someone who knows him happened to see it.
I'm still his. But things are different. I obey him by choice. Which yes, was always the case. But somehow it's different now.
It is true that we haven't "really" been together for a while. Due to our circumstances. I do find I don't experience subspace. While I do love his voice, it doesn't have the same affect on me as it used to. I think it does have a lot to do with the stress I'm under. Perhaps I am "pulling into myself" as he says.