July 8, 2:12 am

Spent most of the day teasing Grizz. LOL.
Got myself very worked up in the process.

Spent some "special" time with him tonight on the phone. mmm just wish I didn't have to be so damn quiet! LOL

Thinking of him now as I lay here. Even though I'm alone, he's with me.
I can feel his love and his warmth even though we're thousands of miles apart.
I do love him so.
Wish I could wrap my arms around him now. Fall asleep beside him.
My Sir. MyLove. My Dom. *sigh*
The only way I could be happier right now is if he could really come here and really fuck me.

But, he has a wife, and a family there. I am a fantasy, a second life. I will never be more than that. But it is wonderful to be his fantasy.
When we are together the rest of the world seems far far away.
I hope he will always remember me. And gets hard when he does... LOL.
I want his fucking hands on me so fucking badly. Grabbing my hips, me on my knees, slamming his cock deep inside me. Fuck yes!!!!

I want to touch him, smell his scent hear his voice. I WANT!!!!!!!!!! HIM!!!!!!!!

But. He is not mine to have. Not really.
I wish I had married a man more like him.

In another place and time, another reality, he and I are together. Having amazing sex almost every night (because we'll need a night to recover lol). His hands reddening my ass, keeping me in line. Claiming me at his whim. Knowing I have given myself to him completely. I am his property to use as he pleases. I want to be owned used for his pleasure.
I imagine, he doesn't allow panties and only dresses or skirts. And he will bend me over, lift my skirt and fuck me any where he wants.
He will walk by me, in the kitchen, while I cook dinner, reach his hand under my skirt, (checking that I have obeyed), part my pussy lips with his fingers and then push them deep inside me. mmm fuck yes. Then he would bring his pussy juice soaked fingers to his lips and suck my juices off of them. "mmm My Good girl" he would say and slap my ass hard. mmm the glorious sting!!! mmm mmm