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Why you being with other women bothers me so much... Here's my theory...

When you cum with other women, your desire for sex, after that, is less. (Of course) and in turn making your desire to be with me less. Even if I'm not consciously aware of it, it affects me. Even if you try to pretend you're horny, it's just not the same.

I'm not comparing you... just saying what I've experienced.

M was masturbating by himself, and so had no desire for me, which hurt me greatly, as you know.

So my theory is, that in my mind, when you cum with other women you are giving them your desire for sex, leaving less for me, the same as he was doing, and I feel like you're giving away to some other woman something that should be mine. Giving your strongest desire to a woman who has NOT given herself to you completely as I have, a woman who is allowed to get her needs met elsewhere because she doesn't belong to you, as opposed to me, having only you to meet all of my sexual needs. I feel as if you expect my submission and obedience but don't place enough value on it. A little like... being taken for granted... I guess.

This is what I want and NEED...

I need you to desire ME. I need to sense that desire in you.
I want you to want me so badly that it's all you can think about. (Not ALL the time of course)
But, if you're getting your needs met elsewhere, than you truly don't NEED me. 
I want to be needed...I need, to be needed.
Like when you used to say...
"I really needed you tonight"
You don't say that anymore. :(.

Anyway...
So... That's my theory...
What's your take on it? 
I want to know your thoughts.

;) I love you!! 
Kisses