Thoughts from today

It's 9:15. I'm lying in bed, thinking of you and of our wonderful afternoon. It was very hot for me to know that you could see me gushing... mmm very hot. To be completely exposed to you, so vulnerable to you. I've wanted to show you that for a long time.

I would write you directly but I know you're busy now. And I already take up a great deal of your time.

Being with you today was amazing, talking with you after was equally amazing. I do love you so. And I do know that you love me. Why else would you stick around.

Someday I may have to give you up. Someday I may choose that, I know, but that day is not today.

You keep me going forward and you keep me grounded. I believe I would be in much danger without your guidance. I do think I would go Dom crazy again. Even though it bugs me. I mean, I think I should have more control over myself than that. But I have to admit, it's one of my weaknesses. I am or at least I can be .... led down dangerous roads by my own sexual and submissive desires. As long as I have a Dom, who's rule is that I don't have sex or play with others, I feel relatively safe about being able to control myself. I only need to submit to him and he gives me direction and strength. Not to mention very satisfying sex. *sigh*
Such a lovely day!

I did get a small pang of insecurity today... I read a comment he made on Fet. To "her". It was truly nothing big, nothing even sexual but my heart smarted when I read her name in his comment. This time, instead of acting like an insane asylum escapee, I just messaged him saying I needed to hear him tell me loved me. He did. And. It worked. It settled me and from then on I was very happy again. I was able to push the unfounded unhappy jealous insecurities to the back of my mind and not dwell on them and not blow things out of proportion. It's odd how that worked.

He's so sweet to me. Such a kind and gentle soul. Although I'm sure he would not be so gentle when he's fucking me. lol. Which is perfectly OK with me. (grin) Actually I prefer a man to be forceful and take control. Hence I'm submissive and he is my Dom. I want to be told what to do.
I did like today, when he was forcing me to say what I would do to his cock. I was very into it.
I'm Not sure if I would like that all the time though.
I didn't tell him that I was having jealous feelings... Rather than complain or whine about it,  I reached out to him for comfort and reassurance. Which he freely and readily gave me. Maybe he is in-love with me after all. I don't know for sure.
But I do know,
I am his.
That's what I want to be.
And that I love him so much that sometimes it hurts.