My submission

I think I will sleep tonight.
It's been a long day.
I did get a lot done.
And G gave me a fucking amazing orgasm!
His voice. His tone. Reprimanding me for "playing" (not cumming - i won't break that rule) without him. It was amazing. He put me into that submissive mindset that I crave. Where all I want is to please him.
It's such a rush. Even now when I remember his voice his words... "I am the Dom here, I am in charge" And I don't even remember everything he said. I just remember the amazing way he made me feel.
Like a drug. Completely under his control. Which is exactly what I want.
I haven't felt these really strong submissive feelings in a long while.
Perhaps it has to do with all the crap I've been through.

Men. *sigh*

I sometimes do slip into a submissive mindset when he makes it clear that he wants me and is about to have me, but many times I find it hard to stay there.
Not really sure why, one theory is that not only do I have to submit but he must dominate. I don't need choices. He doesn't need to ask my permission.

I think I might talk to him about Sir. I mean about him enforcing my calling him Sir. I would just start doing it all the time, on my own, but, I'm unsure if he's comfortable with that. So I want to talk with him about it first.

I want to learn to be more submissive. To be an obedient submissive. I'm not sure how to learn that though.