In the middle of the night

After we've been together, sometimes I'm very tired and sometimes I can't sleep. I hear that's normal. lol

I lay here thinking about you. You are so very sweet to me. The way you talk to me and all the kind things you say. I think about how empty my life would be without you. Especially at midnight Monday through Thursday. lol
I love you.

So I've been thinking a lot about the phrase trust but verify. So if you have to verify doesn't that mean that you don't trust? I know now that I didn't do my proper due diligence. I gave myself to a man I barely knew. I asked very few questions. Not even the right ones. I should have waited longer I should have held out. Not because I don't want to be with him because I do want to be with him but because I fell in love with him before I even knew who he was. And I fell very hard. There are so many things  I really didn't know and I'm sure many more things that I don't know. I wish we had become friends first. I wish we hadn't just jumped right into a relationship. It seems like we missed out on something. As I said he is so very kind to me. And I would be lost without him now. I guess sometimes I just wonder if he actually realizes what I'm giving up to be his. Yes I'm willingly giving it up but still. For as long as I'm his I will not be allowed to play with others. And since I never have it's an experience that I am giving up. Being his is more important.

I wonder very much what a year from now will bring. Will we still be together I'm sure if we are our relationship will have changed somewhat,  grown as people hopefully and grown closer. Its been 5 months. 5 very eventful months.
One thing I do agree with is that he is the right Dom for me.
Good night world.
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MWAH