Smiling

Tonight I'm smiling. I'm so happy.
Grizz was more forceful in his words with me today. *happy sigh*
Giving me what I need.
Taking control. Exerting his authority over me. *sigh*
It brought back those feelings, just a little. Those submissive feelings that I crave.
I'm his.
Sigh

Just after I wrote this, he became very direct and dominant.
He said basically, what he does with his time is none of my business.
That did not go over well.
While he is kind of right.
It upset me.
I think it might just be the dominant woman in me wanting control, fighting with my want and need to submit.
Surrendering my will to his.
That is what I want.
Then why do I fight it sometimes.
Hmmm
I think, fear.
Yes. Fear.