I want to. I truly do. But something in me resists it. It's hard to let go and allow you to have control, even though it's what I want, what I need, what I crave. Maybe it's that "exploding cigar" fear. Not maybe, that is, what it is. I'm afraid, rather terrified, of being hurt, again. Which is crazy, because it's too late anyway, you already have the Power to destroy me so why can't I just let go, just surrender like I did when we first met. My fear stops me. : (