Grizz

He "came for me"
He said he would.
Fucked me silly.
Made me cum very hard. It was intense.
Made me his.
He says he wishes I could rest and be secure in our relationship.
I wish I could too.
I wish I could just let go of my fear and trust him.
I haven't been able to.
It makes me so very sad.
There was a time in the beginning, I trusted every word he said. :(
That's what I want. I want to trust someone so implicitly that I allow them to take total control of me which means I can't be feeling afraid all the time.
I don't want to be without him
I'm afraid that I will never be able to completely surrender to anyone ever again. It just hurts way too much when they betray that trust and the hurt never seems to go away.