Rough day

Many tears.
Not sure where exactly they came from.
Even went to see my Sir, but that ended badly. :(

His friend called and he said, "I'm going to talk with my friend you can come or go as you like"

That sent me back to crying my eyes out.
:(
Feeling tossed aside.
Worthless. In the way.

He says he didn't mean it that way. He says he meant that I didn't have to leave.

I thought he wasn't even going to say good bye. But he says he was.

Then he said, if that's the way I'm going to react then he won't be able to invite me to his house. That hurt. A lot. :'(

I know I was very upset and out of control with my crying. I know he didn't know what to do. :(
Still.
It was mean. Cruel. :(
Sad :(

Before that was OK.
I did get to be near him, although I had the feeling I wasn't really wanted.
Perhaps it's all in my head.
But usually it's not.

Nobody wants me :(