Another wonderful night... :)

And a little more clarity.

I made him dinner, as has become our Tuesday tradition. Today was glazed carrots, oven broiled potato bites and baked chicken with red hot sauce.

He seemed to really like it.
I still sometimes doubt his truthfulness. I don't mean to, but I'm used to people lying.

Oh and deviled eggs, which I know, he loves and I had promised to make for him. :)

Then, we had sex... Our kind of sex... mmm with a little bit of S&M thrown in lol. It was awesome. Although, I am not a fan of canes. He fucked me, with his cock and with a glass dildo, we keep trying for anal sex, but, it's only happened a few times and he's only actually came in my ass once. It was pretty fucking hot though.  I gushed at least 3 times. He is very attentive to my needs especially after I left one time very... Frustrated. I don't think he wants that to happen again. I didn't make a huge deal about it, but I did tell him.

After, we went for a walk. So wonderful. And then we talked for a while, just about whatever.

I asked if he had been in love with Nilla, he said "I thought I was". I feel much sympathy for him. It hurts like hell to love someone who doesn't love you back, and who isn't worth your love.

He says , he's infatuated with me.
I was surprised. Sometimes I feel like as though he could walk away without a second thought.
He says, he has never been " madly in love " with anyone. He says, that's who he is, he doesn't get overly emotional. But. I don't necessarily believe that. I saw him tear up when talking about what he has lost.

I have some questions for him...
But I keep forgetting.

I love him. "happy sigh* ;)