So many feels today

Happy, laughing, bemused.
Thinking about all the things that have happened lately
Leaving Grizz
Meeting Mike.
sigh
I needed him today. I needed to hear his voice. It calmed me.
For some reason I start to think I've done something wrong, or he's lost interest in me like Grizz did.
But, after talking with him. I know, that's not the case.

He's tired. LOL. Which is my fault. I didn't leave his house until 1 am. We played, but not hard. He didn't want to put me in subspace. Not when I had to drive home.
I love every minute of playing with him.
Every strike, every second that we're together.
I it's wonderful.
I didn't know it would be like this.
I had no idea than pain could cause so much pleasure.
This is where my adventure has led me.
From Michael, to Grizz and now Mike.
I'm very grateful to him for taking me under his v wing, so to speak.
He's certainly helping me to move on.
I didn't message Grizz all day today.
Maybe yesterday either.
I do think of him periodically. But I'm trying not to. Because it's just pain. With no purpose anymore.
Grizz is my past.
Mike is my now.
Unknown is my future.