Rainbow Birthday

Teeth brushed.
In bed. 4am
I got home about 2:45 from the play party.
I didn't play today.
I had no one to play with, for one, He couldn't come with. Family stuff.

It was still a ton of fun though.
One thing I did experience was ...
When I heard the slaps and the gasps and cries of pain, OMG
A hunger overtook me. Like a smoker having a nicotine fit. I wanted my Sir so badly at that moment, I wanted to be the one receiving those strikes. And even now I hunger for him.
A deep growling hunger. Wild and dangerous.
I need it. Like I need to breathe, to eat, I need his strikes upon my skin. But, I want it from him, not from someone else. I know, I'm allowed. Well, I think I'm allowed. I guess we still need to have that conversation.
How much control does he have?
How much control does he want?
I don't know.
I'll get back to you on that one.