Suffering

I want to stop thinking about him.
I want to get over it, stop having feelings for him, stop wanting him so much.
He says we will play again. He says he will give me, or rather, we will have that intense connection that I crave. I haven’t seen him in over a week, I miss him so much. I’m completely obsessed and it’s affecting me too much.
I long for even the smallest bit of attention from him. I’m like foolish school girl. I don’t know how to act when I’m around him. I just want to touch him, see his smile. I want to see that look in his eyes, that look that tells me he’s enjoying hurting me.

Why?
Why did I have to fall so hard for him?
It’s making me crazy.

I want to just run away and forget that I even know him.
This is too much stress.