Sad

I think, I’m lonely. I have lots of friends. But, lately I’m feeling very lonely. Like just the last couple of days. A profound sadness that I’m fighting against.

I love this new Dom, so much, his smile warms my heart. I know he doesn’t feel the same way about me and that makes me sad. I do know that he cares for me and enjoys my company.

Why, why can’t I just enjoy being his friend, playing with him, singing with him, taking what he’s able to give, why does it have to make me so sad.
I can’t tell him that I’m in love with him.
I think he’d cut off ties with me.
He’s terrified of  getting into a relationship right now. He’s been hurt, very badly. I so much want to ease his heartache. He’s such a good man. He deserves so much more than he’s had.