Limits and Definitions

Sir and I had a very long talk tonight. :)
We talked about many things :) Tao, Religion, Humanism :)
And the definition of monogamous.

To me monogamous means no other "relationships"
To him it means no sex with others.

I told him, I want him to be free to have sex with others and play with others but that i will most likely be jealous. He understood, I think.

He did say he will tell me beforehand if he decides to have sex with someone else.
I wish it didn't bother me so much. :(

If that happens, I do foresee that it could very well be the end of our relationship.
I will not give him any kind of restrictions, but, I am just not sure I can handle it.
And if I can't then that means we are not well matched.

I know it bothered me a great deal when Grizz spent time with his other women instead of me.

I do think, he doesn't have time to have another relationship. As it is I already want more time than he has or well, I would love to have more time with him, I am willing to accept the status quo because he's worth it.

If the other play partner was taking time away that would have been mine... that would be an issue.

But then that begs the question... what time is mine... he has not promised me any time at all.
Ugh, sometimes that is frustrating, not knowing from one day to the other if I will see him or not.
For him, it's no big deal, it's like he can take me or leave me... or that's how it seems sometimes. Like, if I didn't chase after him he would not seek me out. ;(
I don't know that it's true, and I am not fond of games, so I will not stop contacting him to "test" him.

It was a wonderful phone call. :)
I was upset before he called, missing him a lot, feeling a little lost.
I feel much better now.

I asked him
Are you happy with our relationship?
he said yes, and asked why did I ask
I said, well, your Fet profile still says you're looking for a babygirl. Are you? Still looking for someone else?
He said no, and that he would change his profile.


We talked a lot about how it would be exciting for him to share me with other men/women.
Made me very aroused.
He said it made his cock hard.
he said he likes my submission, that it arouses him.
He likes when I say "Yes Sir"