Me and Mike

I've been thinking a lot about my relationship with Mike. It kind of bothers me that I feel that he is not as attached to me as I am to him. But after talking with KC and talking with Moira. I feel like I might be wrong about that. I feel like he tells me that I don't have his heart but maybe I really do but he doesn't want me to know because he's protecting himself. Just because he does seem to be so very attentive and loving and he says this is not casual for him so what does "this is not casual " mean??  to me that means he's in love with me ... because if you weren't in love with me then it would be just casual wouldn't it? I don't know? he confuses  me . but you know what I truly love being with him just even talking to him laughing watching TV I enjoy his company I enjoy being his I enjoy wearing his play collar and oh my... lol...  he's just... he's a good man and he's a very respectful Dom and I don't know how often I'm going to find that. I don't want to give that up. I don't think I should give it up even even if he's not in love with me perhaps that's not a requirement. Or perhaps that comes later. I don't know maybe he doesn't know what being in love means. lol Just a bunch of thoughts running through my head and so... yeah.... lol