My message to Sir

I'm just not up to it (aquafit), I did really consider going anyway, headache, nausea, and diarrhea. And I'm freezing cold. So I'm under my blankets. Just resting. But I really do want to thank you for pushing me a little. I do need that. Sir, I'm wondering, if you feel like I'm too much work for you, you know, like you were saying last night about subs who are so needy. And about you not identifying as a Dom. I do want and need rules and boundaries and discipline. But I also don't want to burden you with things you don't want. If you don't want the added responsibilities, I need to know that  I need you, as my Sir, to be my leader. I need structure and I need to know that you care enough to not let me away with bad behavior. I need to know that you are, and want to be, in charge, sometimes I need a reminder of that. It doesn't even need to be anything big. Just a reminder that You make the decisions and not me. I need that to feel safe and secure with you. Anyway, I know this is long and you'll say I'm ranting again lol. I love you Sir, I love being with you. I want to always tell you what I need, well, if I know that is,  and I hope that you would do the same.

He called. He says, I'm not to worry. That he loves me. He says he's learning that I need him to put his foot down. Especially about aquafit. He says there is no reason for me to doubt. But that he does want me to tell him, if I start feeling that way.
I'm so very lucky to have him. He's an amazing man.