Sad i don't want to chase him any more

I'm kind of irritated.
I'm here at home alone, he's there with his friends (they're doing laundry but still) they are there. And me, he didn't even really want to talk to me on the phone.

He says he's under the weather.
So I guess I should cut him some slack.
It's just, if we were just friends I would be more important to him than I am.

I dunno.

Jealous I guess.
Because they get to be with him and I don't.
But I'm irritated anyway. 
I hate not being very important to him.
I'm not sure that's true.
But that's how I feel right now.
Like I could just leave, and he wouldn't care. Like I'm a burden to him.
Like he doesn't want to be with me anymore. But he doesn't want to hurt me either. I don't know if that's true or just my own fears.
I'm sad today.
Not really sure why.

I think I should just let him be. Let him contact me. I'm not sure that I'm wanted.

It just occurred to me... Perhaps I need to play... Perhaps that's the cause of the frustration I feel.

And I haven't cum since I was with him on Tuesday. That's a long time for me.